Someone had been paying for her son’s fiddle lessons for a year, and the teacher finally told her who
“Paid in full,” Corliss Ange said, handing Trina Haskew the receipt book. “Every month since last November. He asked me not to tell you.”
Trina stared at the initials at the bottom of each page.
L.B.
She was thirty-eight, a single mother who worked at the hardware store in Mountain City, Tennessee. Her eleven-year-old son, Asher, had wanted to play the fiddle since he was six. She’d finally found Mrs. Ange, who taught out of her living room. Lessons were sixty dollars a month. Trina had been scraping it together, sometimes late, always worried.
Then, last fall, Mrs. Ange had told her she didn’t owe anything anymore.
“An anonymous scholarship,” the teacher had said.
Now Trina knew better.
“Lonzo Burchett,” Mrs. Ange said quietly. “Your neighbor.”
Lonzo was eighty-one, a retired coal miner who lived in the gray house next door. He sat on his porch most evenings picking an old five-string banjo. He waved at Asher every afternoon but rarely said more than a few words.
Trina had never told him anything about the lessons. She couldn’t imagine why he’d care.
On the wall of Mrs. Ange’s studio hung an old framed photograph. Five young men with instruments, standing in front of a barn. The Laurel Creek Ramblers, 1979.
Trina had seen it a dozen times. Today, she looked closer.
The young man holding the banjo had Lonzo’s crooked smile.
The one beside him, holding a fiddle, was her father.
He’d died when Trina was nineteen. He’d never once mentioned playing in a band. He’d never mentioned Lonzo Burchett at all.
That evening, Trina walked next door. Lonzo was on the porch with his banjo. He looked at the receipt book in her hand and slowly set the banjo down.
He reached beside his chair and lifted a battered black fiddle case onto his lap. He opened it carefully.
The fiddle inside was old and dark, its red velvet lining worn thin.
Carved into the scroll, right where her father always rested his thumb, were two small initials.
The Mark Beneath His Hand
C.H.
Trina touched the letters with one finger.
“Carl Haskew,” she said.
Lonzo nodded.
For a few seconds, neither of them said anything. A truck went past on Roan Street, its tires throwing gravel against the ditch. Somewhere behind the houses, a dog barked twice and quit.
“My daddy’s fiddle?”
Lonzo rubbed his palm over his knee. His hands were broad and cracked, the nails ridged from forty years underground.
“Was his.”
“Where did you get it?”
“He gave it to me.”
Trina looked at the old man. “When?”
“Before he left for Kentucky.”
Her father had left for Kentucky?
That was not how Trina remembered it. Carl Haskew had died at Holston Valley Hospital in February 2005, after a logging truck crossed the center line on Highway 421. She remembered the plastic bag of his clothes. His wallet. The silver watch that never worked after the crash.
She remembered every person who came to the funeral.
She did not remember Kentucky.
Lonzo opened the case farther. Beneath the fiddle was a folded square of wax paper, a rosin cake gone yellow with age, and a photograph curled at the corners.
He handed Trina the photograph.
Her father stood in front of the same barn from Mrs. Ange’s wall. He was twenty-three, maybe twenty-four, with long sideburns and hair that fell over his forehead. Lonzo stood beside him, thinner and grinning.
Between them was a girl Trina had never seen.
She wore a white blouse, jeans, and a red scarf tied around her neck. One hand rested on the shoulder of a little boy.
Trina turned the photograph over.
On the back, in blue ink, someone had written:
Laurel Creek, August 18, 1979. Don’t let him run off again.
“Who’s she?” Trina asked.
Lonzo took the picture back. His thumb covered part of the writing.
“That’s June.”
“June who?”
“June Pruitt.”
He said the name as if it were enough.
It wasn’t.
“Why did my father give you this fiddle?”
Lonzo stared at the instrument. “Because he was mad at me.”
“For what?”
“He thought I took something from him.”
“What?”
“His chance.”
Trina gave a short laugh, but there was no humor in it. “That doesn’t mean anything.”
“No,” Lonzo said. “It doesn’t. Not yet.”
He lifted the fiddle and turned it sideways. The varnish was worn bare beneath the neck. A thin crack ran from the lower edge of the bridge toward the tailpiece.
“Your daddy could play before he could drive. His mother sent him over to my house because I had a radio and two records. Bill Monroe. Vassar Clements. Carl listened until the grooves went gray.”
Trina had known almost nothing about her father before she was born. He worked road construction. He could fix a carburetor with a screwdriver and a piece of wire. He hated raisins. He sang badly in the shower.
That was the whole file.
“Why didn’t he ever tell me?”
Lonzo’s gaze went to the darkening road. “Your daddy didn’t talk about things that made him look foolish.”
“He was a grown man.”
“He was still foolish.”
That sounded enough like Carl that Trina almost smiled.
Almost.
What Carl Left Behind
Lonzo invited her inside.
The gray house smelled of coffee, dust, and the cedar blocks he kept in the closets. There were no photographs on the walls except one of a younger Lonzo in a hard hat and another of a woman with curled hair and a cigarette between two fingers.
“Your wife?” Trina asked.
“Beth. She hated that picture.”
“Why keep it?”
“She looked pretty mad.”
The living room was crowded with things that had nowhere else to go. A broken clock. Three milk crates of cassette tapes. A fishing rod propped in the corner. On the television sat a ceramic rooster with one eye missing.
Lonzo walked to a cabinet and pulled out a manila folder.
The first page was a handbill printed on cheap cream paper.
THE LAUREL CREEK RAMBLERS
Saturday Night Dance
Mill Creek Grange Hall
Music from 8 until closing
The band members were listed beneath the title.
Lonzo Burchett, banjo.
Carl Haskew, fiddle.
Wade Sisk, guitar.
Mackie Tolliver, bass.
June Pruitt, vocals.
Trina read it twice.
“June sang with you?”
“She did everything with us. Sang, drove, kept Carl from starting fights.”
“My father started fights?”
“Only when awake.”
Lonzo took out another paper. This one was folded along the middle and stained brown at one corner.
It was a letter.
Trina recognized her father’s handwriting immediately. The letters leaned hard to the right, as if they were trying to get somewhere.
Lonzo pushed it across the table.
“I should’ve given you this years ago.”
Trina did not touch it.
“What is it?”
“A letter from Carl.”
“To you?”
“Yes.”
“Why are you giving it to me now?”
“Because Asher plays the way Carl played.”
Her eyes lifted.
“What does that mean?”
“He doesn’t hold the bow like a beginner. He holds it like somebody taught his hand before his head got involved.”
Trina opened the letter.
The date at the top was September 3, 1980.
Lonzo,
You were right about the song. I was wrong about June. I know that now. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with knowing it. She says the baby is yours and I believe her. I still don’t understand why you won’t tell anybody.
The next line had been crossed out so hard the paper had nearly torn.
You should have let me go with you.
Below that:
I’m taking the fiddle. Don’t come after me. If I stay, I will say something ugly and mean it.
The letter ended there.
No signature.
Trina read it again, slower.
“June had a baby?”
Lonzo sat down across from her. The springs in the chair complained.
“She did.”
“Yours?”
He looked at the table.
“Yes.”
The room changed shape around the answer. The cabinet. The rooster. The old television. Everything was suddenly too close.
“Who was the baby?”
Lonzo didn’t answer.
“Who?”
“Her name was Marlene.”
“And where is she?”
“Knoxville. Last I heard.”
“Last you heard?”
“She won’t speak to me.”
Trina set the letter down. “You have a daughter you don’t speak to?”
“I sent money.”
“That isn’t the same thing.”
“No.”
“Did my father know?”
“He knew before I did.”
“That’s not possible.”
“June told him first.”
Trina pushed back from the table. The chair legs scraped the floor.
“So my father wasn’t in a band because he was shy or private. He was in the middle of some baby scandal with you.”
“That’s one way to put it.”
“What’s the other way?”
Lonzo’s face folded in on itself. He looked old then, not just eighty-one. “June was seventeen. I was twenty. Carl was the only one who knew where she was staying. Her parents would have sent her away if they knew. Carl lied for us.”
“And then?”
“Then I got scared.”
“You left her.”
“I went to work in West Virginia. Three months. I sent Carl money for her doctor and rent.”
“You sent my father money?”
“Carl gave it to June.”
Trina stared at the letter. “And he thought you were sleeping with her.”
“He thought I was going to marry her. He wanted me to. Maybe I should’ve.”
“Did you love her?”
Lonzo’s answer came quick.
“Yes.”
That was the first thing he had said without looking away.
The Name on the Tape
He opened a second drawer and removed a cassette in a cracked plastic case.
On the label, in red marker, someone had written:
C. Haskew / Last Set / Don’t Erase
“What’s this?”
“Your father playing.”
Trina turned the cassette over. The tape had a strip of masking tape across the back, yellowed and peeling.
“Why didn’t you give this to me before?”
“Your mother told me not to.”
Trina’s hand stopped.
“My mother?”
“Evelyn came by after the funeral. She said you didn’t need another story about Carl.”
“My mother knew about all this?”
“She knew enough.”
Trina’s mother had moved to Ohio two years after Carl died. She called on birthdays and sent supermarket gift cards at Christmas. When Trina was pregnant, Evelyn had said, A boy needs his father around.
She had not mentioned Lonzo. Not once.
“Did my mother know about the band?”
“Yes.”
“Did she know about June?”
Lonzo nodded.
“Why would she keep that from me?”
“Because she thought Carl was trying to leave her.”
Trina looked at the cassette.
“Was he?”
Lonzo did not answer.
That was answer enough.
At home, she found an old boom box in the hall closet beneath a stack of Christmas wrapping paper. The batteries leaked white crust onto the contacts, but it still worked after she cleaned them with a cotton swab and vinegar.
Asher was at the kitchen table doing math homework. He had drawn a fiddle in the margin of his worksheet, all crooked lines and square pegs.
“Where’d you get that?” Trina asked.
“Mrs. Ange showed me.”
“Did she tell you about your grandpa?”
“No.”
Trina put the cassette beside his elbow.
“Do you know this song?”
Asher read the label. “Last Set.”
“Don’t touch it.”
He withdrew his hand.
Trina found a blank cassette in the junk drawer. She did not know why she wanted a copy. Maybe the old tape would break. Maybe the past had to be duplicated before it could be trusted.
The first sound was a chair scraping.
Then somebody laughed.
A young voice said, “We got one more if Lonzo’s fingers haven’t quit.”
A banjo struck three quick notes.
Then the fiddle came in.
Trina gripped the edge of the table.
Her father played fast, but not wild. The bow bit the strings in short strokes. He missed one note near the middle and laughed under his breath. Lonzo shouted something that the microphone did not catch.
A woman began singing.
June.
Her voice was low and rough. She sang about a train leaving Bristol, a woman waiting with an unpaid bill, a man who promised to come back before the leaves turned.
When the song ended, someone clapped close to the recorder.
Then Carl spoke.
“If Trina ever wants to know, tell her I wasn’t running from her.”
The tape crackled.
Lonzo’s voice came next, younger and clear.
“Tell her yourself.”
“I will.”
“When?”
“When I get brave.”
There was a pause.
Then Carl said, “You better hurry. She’ll be mean.”
Trina sat very still.
Asher had stopped working. His pencil rested across the page.
“Is that Grandpa?”
“Yes.”
“He sounds happy.”
She pressed stop.
The machine clicked.
“Mom?”
“I need to call Grandma.”
The Lie in Evelyn’s Kitchen
Evelyn answered on the fourth ring.
“It’s late,” she said.
“It’s seven-thirteen.”
“I’ve got a headache.”
“Did Dad play the fiddle?”
Nothing.
Trina held the phone tighter.
“Mom.”
“Yes.”
“Did he play with Lonzo Burchett?”
“Yes.”
“Did he know a woman named June Pruitt?”
A cabinet door closed on the other end.
“Who told you?”
“Lonzo.”
Evelyn sighed. “That man should’ve kept his mouth shut.”
“Why did you tell him not to give me the tape?”
“Because your father was dead.”
“That doesn’t answer me.”
“You were nineteen. You were already falling apart.”
“I was at his funeral.”
“You were nineteen,” Evelyn repeated. “You thought every terrible thing had to be yours personally.”
Trina looked across the kitchen at Asher, who was pretending not to listen.
“Was he going to leave you?”
Evelyn took a long time to answer.
“He was going to find his daughter.”
“His daughter?”
“June’s child. Marlene. Carl believed Lonzo was her father, but June had written to him. She said the baby might be his.”
“Why would Dad care?”
“Because he had promised June he would help. He was a decent man when it cost him sleep.”
“That isn’t what you said before.”
“No. It isn’t.”
“Did he love her?”
“No.”
The answer came sharp.
Then Evelyn softened.
“Not like that. He loved the life they had before everything got ugly. He loved the music. He loved being somebody else for three hours on a Saturday night.”
“Did you hate him for it?”
“I hated that he wanted something I couldn’t give him.”
Trina said nothing.
Evelyn began crying, but quietly, as if she resented the sound.
“He had the fiddle in the trunk when he died,” she said. “I gave it to Lonzo because I couldn’t look at it. He took it and promised he’d keep it safe.”
“Why didn’t he give it to me?”
“Because I told him you wanted nothing to do with your father.”
“I never said that.”
“You didn’t have to. You wouldn’t say his name.”
Trina looked at the black cassette.
“What happened to June?”
“She died in 1987.”
“And Marlene?”
“Carl found her.”
Trina’s fingers went cold around the phone.
“What?”
“He found her in Knoxville. She was eight. Carl went to see her. Lonzo went too.”
“What happened?”
“Her adoptive parents wouldn’t let them in.”
“Did Carl keep trying?”
“Yes.”
“Did he ever tell me?”
“No.”
“Why not?”
Evelyn’s voice broke. “Because he was afraid you’d think he loved that little girl more than he loved you.”
The phone stayed against Trina’s ear after her mother stopped speaking.
In the hallway, the old refrigerator kicked on. Asher erased something from his worksheet and rubbed the paper until it tore.
“Mom,” he said, “can I ask you something?”
Trina hung up.
“What?”
“Can I use Grandpa’s fiddle?”
She stared at him.
“It’s not ours.”
“It is if he gave it to Mr. Lonzo.”
“He didn’t give it to us.”
“But Mr. Lonzo paid for my lessons.”
That stopped her.
The Thing Lonzo Had Been Saving
The next morning, Trina called in sick to the hardware store.
At nine, she found Lonzo sitting on his porch in a brown cardigan, the fiddle case beside him. He had shaved. Badly. There was a strip of toilet paper stuck beneath his chin.
“You got blood on your neck,” she said.
“Morning to you too.”
She handed him a clean tissue.
He dabbed at his chin and missed the spot.
“Your daughter,” Trina said. “Marlene.”
Lonzo looked at the road.
“She lives in Knoxville. She works at a dental office. Her last name is Pruitt.”
“You know where she is?”
“I know where she was six years ago.”
“Have you seen her?”
“Once.”
“What did she say?”
“She said, ‘You look like him.'”
“Like who?”
“June.”
He folded the tissue into a tiny square.
“I told her about you,” he said. “About Carl. She didn’t want to hear it.”
“Did you tell her I exist?”
“No.”
“Why?”
“Because I had no right to bring you into it.”
Trina wanted to be angry. She had arrived prepared for it. But Lonzo was looking at his hands, and those hands had held a banjo beside her father in 1979. They had taken money from a pension check each month and carried it next door to pay for Asher’s lessons.
She hated that the facts would not line up neatly.
“Why fiddle lessons?” she asked.
“Because Carl asked me to.”
Her head came up.
“When?”
“January 2005.”
“He was dead in February.”
“I know.”
Lonzo opened the fiddle case. Beneath the instrument, under the red velvet, was a narrow pocket Trina had not noticed.
From it he pulled a folded sheet of paper.
This one had her name on it.
Trina,
If you ever have a child who wants to play, don’t let money be the reason he stops. I had a friend once who could’ve been good, but his family needed coal and flour more than they needed music. I still think about that.
The handwriting was older than the one on the cassette label. The ink had bled at the bottom.
Mr. Burchett says he owes me a fiddle. He doesn’t. He owes me a favor, and I owe him one back. That’s how it works with friends, I guess.
There was no date.
No explanation.
Only one final line.
Tell the boy the first song is always the hardest.
Trina sat beside Lonzo.
“You wrote the note?”
“No.”
“Did he give it to you?”
“No. It was in the fiddle when he gave me the fiddle.”
“Then why did you wait?”
Lonzo’s face tightened, though his mouth did not.
“Because I was a coward.”
The word sat there.
He continued. “Carl came to my house the night before he died. He said he was going to Knoxville again. He wanted to find Marlene. He said if anything happened, I was to make sure his music didn’t die with him.”
“Did he know he was going to die?”
“He had a bad feeling. That’s all.”
“Did you tell my mother?”
“Carl told me not to.”
“Did he ask you to pay for Asher’s lessons?”
Lonzo gave a tired smile.
“Carl never met Asher.”
“He knew?”
“He knew you were pregnant. He saw you at the grocery store in December. He called me that night.”
Trina counted backward. She had been seven months pregnant. She remembered standing in the canned-goods aisle with a watermelon under one arm while Carl watched from the end of the row.
She had thought he looked sick.
“What did he say?”
“He said, ‘She’s going to have a boy.’ I said, ‘How do you know?’ He said, ‘She told me.'”
Trina rubbed her thumb over the paper.
“Why didn’t he call me?”
“He was afraid you’d hang up.”
“That sounds like him.”
“Yes.”
Lonzo picked up the fiddle. He held it out to Asher, who had come around the side of the porch without Trina hearing him.
The boy stopped two steps away.
“Can I?”
Lonzo nodded.
Asher took the fiddle with both hands. He held it badly, his chin too far forward, his elbow crooked.
Lonzo reached over and adjusted the angle.
“Don’t squeeze,” he said. “It’ll fight you.”
Asher drew the bow across the strings.
The note came out thin and ugly.
A crow answered from the telephone wire.
Asher tried again.
This time, the sound held.
Lonzo closed his eyes.
Trina looked down at the receipt book in her lap. Every month had been marked in blue ink. November. December. January. February. Twelve payments, all made by a man who had once promised her father he would not let the music disappear.
Asher played the same open string again.
And again.
On the fourth try, he found the note.
Lonzo smiled without opening his eyes.
The fiddle’s old wood shook against the boy’s collarbone. Then Asher lifted the bow, missed the string, and hit Lonzo’s thumb.
“Ow,” Lonzo said.
“Sorry.”
“You’ll do it again.”
Asher did.
This time, Lonzo laughed.
Trina stood beside them, holding the letter with both hands. On the porch, beneath the gray house and the dead flowerpots, her father’s fiddle made one clean, stubborn sound.
Then another.
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