My late wife’s nephew, the man I’d trusted with my flagship, looked right at my filthy face last Thursday and said, “Nobody wants your kind in my store.” He had no clue he was throwing out the old man who owned every brick of the building. I was almost to the doors when somebody grabbed my hand and held on.
I was eighty-six, with 284 discount stores in four states and nobody alive to leave them to.
Irma passed in 2003, and we never had kids.
Nights alone in that house, all eleven thousand square feet of it, I kept asking the ceiling one thing: WHO GETS IT when I’m dead?
Everybody at church figured Pablo did.
Irma’s sister’s boy. I’d made him manager of the flagship the summer he turned forty.
But I’ve watched money split families before the casserole dishes even came back.
I wanted it going to somebody with a decent heart, and I wanted to see it myself.
So I did something stupid.
I quit shaving for six weeks and dug a stained barn coat out of the garage.
Then a red knit cap with a hole, motor oil on my cheeks, sour buttermilk down my front.
The man in the bathroom mirror looked like he’d been skipping meals since spring.
I shuffled into the Tulsa flagship at ten past eleven.
Somebody had left a cart full of cat litter in the main aisle.
Nobody said hello.
Katie at the self-checkouts said to the cart boy, “God, he STINKS like a dumpster.”
Brandon from Rotary yanked his boy behind his cart. “Carson, don’t you LOOK at the bum.”
Then Pablo came down aisle nine, keys swinging off his belt.
“Sir, you’ve got to go, customers are complaining,” he said, staring right at me. “Nobody wants YOUR KIND in my store.”
In MY store.
I’d paid for that boy’s braces.
Every word was one more nail, and the sting wasn’t the worst part.
The worst part was seeing who’d been running things while I sat home.
I was three steps from the doors.
Then a hand SQUEEZED mine.
Hard, like it meant to keep me. I spun around to find out whose it was. ⬇️⬇️⬇️
The pharmacy bench
It was the cart boy. The one Katie had been talking to.
He was maybe nineteen, skinny, an orange vest over a gray hoodie, and a name tag that said HOANG in label-maker letters. He had my hand in both of his like I might tip over. I’ll be honest, I might have.
“Sir, it’s thirty-four degrees out there,” he said. “Come sit a minute.”
“Hoang,” Pablo said behind me.
“I’m on lunch.” He didn’t let go. “I clocked out.”
He walked me around the cat litter to the bench by the pharmacy drop-off and went to the deli. He came back with a large coffee and a turkey on wheat. He stuffed the receipt in his vest pocket, but not before I saw it. Six dollars and eighty-one cents, off his own debit card.
I tore the sandwich in half and held one half out to him. He looked at it a second and took it.
We talked maybe eight minutes. I’ll get to what about.
“You got somewhere warm tonight?” he said.
“I’ve got a house.”
“Okay.” He said it the way you say it to a drunk. “Okay, good.”
Past his shoulder, Pablo stood at the end of aisle nine with his phone up flat in front of his chest, the way you’d hold a menu. Then he put it away and came over.
“He’s got ten minutes, Hoang,” he said. “Then it’s your job.”
The red cap
Irma knit that cap the winter of 1998.
She was a terrible knitter and she knew it. She’d sit in the den with the Weather Channel on, counting stitches out loud in Spanish, and when she lost count she’d say a word her mother would’ve slapped her for.
She gave it to me Christmas morning in a Dillard’s box she’d saved from some other Christmas. Pablo was at our kitchen table, twenty-one, home from his first semester of community college, eating her tamales off a paper plate. The braces I’d paid for in 1990 were long off his teeth by then.
He stuck his finger through the hole above the left ear.
“Tía, you made him a colander.”
“It lets his brains breathe,” Irma said. “God knows they need it.”
I wore it every winter after. I still do, around the yard.
When Irma died, Pablo started coming Sundays. Every Sunday for twenty-three years. He’d bring a dish of his mother’s enchiladas, take last week’s empty dish home to her, fix whatever was dripping or loose, and eat in Irma’s chair at the end of the table because I couldn’t stand looking at it empty. At church he called me Tío loud enough for the back pews. His mother, Esperanza, called me every Thursday at seven, rain or shine, and asked if I was eating.
When I gave him the flagship, Esperanza cried at the ribbon cutting.
This fall, the Sundays got a little different, and I didn’t think a thing of it.
In August he asked who held my power of attorney these days. “Still Georgia Cohen? She’s got to be seventy.”
“Sixty-eight,” I said. “And sharper than both of us.”
Three weeks into the beard, he stood in my kitchen and looked me up and down. “You forgetting to shave now, Tío?”
“Saving on razors.”
He laughed and took a picture of me with his phone. “For Mamá. She won’t believe it.”
I’d told one person about my plan. Georgia Cohen has had my will in her safe since 1987. She said it was the dumbest idea she’d heard from a client in forty years, and she has a client who married his boat mechanic.
“If anybody calls the police on you,” she said, “you call me before you say one word to them.”
Nobody called the police. On the bench, the clock over the pharmacy said Hoang had six minutes left.
I left with five to spare, so the kid wouldn’t get in trouble.
Self-checkout four
Friday morning I shaved it all off and threw the barn coat in the trash. The buttermilk had gotten into the lining, and there was no saving it.
Saturday I went back as myself. Slacks, the good coat, my own face.
Katie lit up at self-checkout four. “Morning, sir. Pablo’s off today, you want me to call him?”
“No. There was a cart boy. Skinny kid. Hoang.”
“Oh, he got let go yesterday.” She scanned somebody’s toilet paper without looking at it. “He took a sandwich off the deli for some homeless guy. Pablo said there wasn’t a receipt.”
There was a receipt. It was in his vest pocket.
“Honestly, he was always kind of soft,” Katie said. “You feed one of them, they all come back.”
I went out to the car and called Rochelle.
Rochelle runs loss prevention for the whole chain and sends me shrink numbers on the third of every month, whether I read them or not. She’s run the cameras since 2011, when a man with a shotgun robbed our east-side store and I put cameras in all 284 locations. Every one of them uploads to her office out by the interstate. A store manager can pull stills off the last seven days. He can’t touch the archive. Pablo fought me on the cost of that system for two years.
“I need an address for a cart associate at the flagship,” I said. “Hoang. Terminated yesterday.”
She was quiet a second. “Is this about the sandwich?”
“Why do you know about a sandwich?”
“It’s on his termination form. I get copies.”
She gave me the address.
It was an apartment over a nail salon. Hoang opened the door in socks with a bowl of cereal. He didn’t know me from Adam.
So I took the red cap out of my coat pocket and put it on.
He looked at the cap. Then at me. Then at the cap.
“Oh, man,” he said. “Oh, no way.”
I told him who I was. He said no I wasn’t. I showed him my driver’s license, and he read it twice.
“Did I get fired because of you?”
“Yes.”
He sat down on the arm of his couch. I asked him if he’d write down what we talked about on that bench, all of it, while he still remembered. He wrote it on a legal pad at his kitchen table, and it took him twenty minutes. He had it closer than I did. That I knew the date. That I told him my wife knit the cap and her nephew called it a colander. That I asked if he was in school, and he said welding, two nights a week.
Then he went to the drawer by the stove and handed me his termination form.
Reason for separation: Unauthorized contact with a vulnerable adult.
Monday, eight-forty
I called Pablo Saturday night.
“Rehire the cart boy,” I said.
He didn’t say anything for a while. “Which cart boy, Tío?”
“Hoang.”
“How do you know Hoang’s name?”
“I talked to Rochelle.”
“You called loss prevention on a Saturday about a cart associate.” He said it slow, like he was writing it down. “You hear how that sounds?”
“It’s my company.”
“Nobody’s saying it isn’t. Get some sleep, Tío.”
Sunday he didn’t come.
Esperanza’s dish from the week before sat washed on the counter, waiting to go back. I set two plates anyway, out of habit, and ate my half of a pot roast standing up at the stove. I called Esperanza at six. She always picks up. She didn’t.
Monday at eight-forty the doorbell rang.
A man in a Thunder windbreaker held out a big envelope. “You’re served, sir. Have a good one.”
It was a petition in the county district court for the appointment of an emergency temporary guardian of my person and my estate. The petitioner was Pablo Tabora, nephew. The proposed guardian was Pablo Tabora, nephew. The hearing was set for Thursday at nine.
Exhibit A was four stills off the flagship cameras. Me in the barn coat by the cat litter. Me on the bench. Me in the doorway, hunched, with the cap pulled down.
Exhibit B was Pablo’s sworn declaration. I read it standing in the front hall.
He wrote that I’d been found wandering his store, disoriented and in soiled clothing. That I’d neglected my hygiene for weeks and couldn’t explain why. That I had not responded to my own name. That a store employee had been instructed to keep away from me for my protection. That he feared for my safety and for “the estate my late aunt helped build.”
There was an Exhibit C stapled behind that, typed. I didn’t get to it. My hands weren’t doing what I asked.
Georgia was at the house by ten with her reading glasses on a chain and a sack of donuts nobody touched. She read the whole thing at my kitchen table without a word. Then she took her glasses off.
“He doesn’t want the stores,” she said. “He wants you. If a judge signs this Thursday, he votes every share you own, and you need his permission to buy a car.”
“Can he do that?”
“With those pictures, and you at eighty-six? He can try.” She tapped the declaration. “Did he say your name in that store? Even once?”
“He called me sir.”
“Then I don’t want his four pictures,” Georgia said. “I want the whole tape.”
11:04
Rochelle’s office was a windowless room with three monitors and a ficus that I’m pretty sure was plastic.
She had the flagship pulled up before we sat down. Camera fourteen, the front end of aisle nine, Thursday.
At 11:02 I come shuffling in from the left side of the screen. The barn coat. The cap. I stop at the cat litter like I don’t know how to get around it, which I didn’t, because I’d never shopped my own store from that angle.
At 11:04 Pablo steps out from behind the end cap.
He holds the phone up at me. Flat, at his chest. He holds it there a long time, then takes two steps closer and holds it again.
“That’s zoom,” Rochelle said. “You hold it like that when you’re zooming in on something.”
He puts the phone away. He walks off screen toward the back.
Rochelle switched to the office camera. At 11:06 Pablo sits down at his desk and types on his phone with both thumbs for about two minutes.
At 11:09 he stands up, checks his belt for his keys, and walks out.
Georgia had Exhibit C in her lap. She turned it toward me without saying anything.
It was titled Welfare Visit Notes. Every Sunday since the first of August, typed and dated, a line or two each.
Aug. 2. Asked Tío about POA. He became defensive.
Aug. 16. Tío asked me the same question twice about the gutters.
Oct. 11. Tío unshaven, refused to explain. Photo taken for family.
And the last one.
Thursday, 11:04 a.m. Tío at the flagship in Tía Irma’s red cap. Disoriented, soiled. Photos attached.
Exhibit D was the two photos. The second one was close. You could see the hole above the left ear.
On Rochelle’s middle monitor it was 11:09, and my nephew was walking down aisle nine toward his uncle.
“He wrote that at eleven-oh-four,” Georgia said. “Then he put you out in thirty-four degrees.”
I took the cap out of my pocket and put my finger through the hole.
The manager’s office
Tuesday afternoon I went to my own doctor and asked for every test he had. I counted backward from a hundred by sevens. I drew a clock with the hands at ten past eleven. I named as many animals as I could in a minute, and I got to thirty-one before I ran out of farm. He wrote me a letter on his letterhead and didn’t charge me, which I didn’t like either.
Wednesday at nine I walked into the flagship with Georgia, a thumb drive from Rochelle, Hoang’s legal pad, and the doctor’s letter.
Pablo’s office door was open. Esperanza was sitting in the chair across from his desk with her purse in her lap. He’d called her in. He stood up when he saw me, and he smiled like it was Sunday.
“Tío. Sit down. Mamá’s here because she’s worried. We’re all worried.”
I didn’t sit.
“You walked into this store smelling like spoiled milk,” he said. “You grew a beard you can’t explain. You called my loss prevention on a Saturday night about a cart associate. What was I supposed to think? Somebody has to make sure some church or some kid off the cart corral doesn’t talk you out of everything Tía built.”
“Irma built a feed store,” I said. “I built the rest.”
“Twenty-three years,” Pablo said. He came around the desk. “Twenty-three years of Sundays, Tío. You think I liked those Sundays? I cleaned your gutters. I sat in that chair and watched you cry into the pot roast. I’ve run this building nine years for a manager’s salary, and you go play dress-up to see if I’m good enough for it?”
Georgia set the 11:04 page on his desk. Then the photo of the cap. Then the doctor’s letter. Then Hoang’s legal pad.
“Your declaration says you feared for his safety,” she said. “The tape says you knew who he was at eleven-oh-four and threw him out at eleven-ten. Withdraw the petition by noon. If you don’t, all of this goes to the judge Thursday, and your sworn statement goes to the district attorney.”
Pablo looked at the page a long time.
“You set me up,” he said to me. “Your own family. You set a trap for your own family.”
I handed him the other envelope. A letter, one paragraph, removing him as store manager effective that morning. Signed by the sole owner.
“You can’t fire family,” he said.
“I can fire the manager.”
That was when Esperanza picked up the 11:04 page. She read it with her lips moving a little, like she does with the church bulletin. Then she set it down, square to the edge of the desk.
“I know,” she said. “He showed me the pictures Thursday night.”
“He showed you.”
“Irma’s cap. Of course I knew it was you.” She stood and buttoned her coat. “What kind of man does that to his own wife’s family? You don’t have anybody else, viejo. You were going to give it away to strangers.”
“He knew it was me,” I said. “And he still put me out in the cold.”
“He’s my son.”
Pablo got his phone out and called his lawyer while we stood there. He told him to pull it. He said it twice, the second time louder.
Esperanza stopped in the doorway with her purse on her arm.
“Bring my dish back,” she said. “Leave it on the porch.”
The cart corral
Two Saturdays later it was cold again, twenty-nine on the bank sign.
I drove Esperanza’s dish over first thing and set it on her porch. The light was on. The curtain didn’t move. Thursday at seven the phone didn’t ring, and I sat next to it anyway with the TV on mute.
Georgia’s copy of the dismissal is on my refrigerator under a magnet shaped like Oklahoma. At Rotary, Brandon shook my hand and told me Carson asked about the bum at the store all week, and did I ever hear what happened to that poor guy. I said I’d heard he was doing fine.
Vanessa from the deli counter runs the flagship now. Katie works nights.
I parked by the cart corral, out where the wind comes off the lot, and put on the red cap.
Hoang was rounding up carts in his orange vest with his hood pulled up. Back pay, two raises, and his welding classes on the company, all of it signed in Rochelle’s office the same afternoon I fired his boss.
He saw the cap before he saw me.
“Hey,” he said. “Colander.”
“You eat pot roast?”
He leaned on the front cart. “What day?”
“Sunday. Six o’clock.”
He thought about it like it was a real question. Then he pushed the whole line of carts at me so I’d have something to hold on to.
“Do I gotta bring a dish?”
If this one got to you, send it to somebody who still sets the extra plate on Sundays.
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